HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!



Yesterday was my dear friend Michelle's Birthday. Sorry this post is a day late. I couldn't get the picture onto the computer until this morning. But happy birthday anyway Michelle.



I am so glad to have you as a sister and my son's Aunty!
We love you!

Cooper and I did it!

He is successfully weaned of the soother. It has been 4 days since he has had one at all. I am so proud of him. He did so well.
He had his one year shots on Monday as well as the chicken pox vaccine. He did really well. Although he did get a rash on his arm from the MMR shot. But it is expected.
He weighs 21lbs and is 29 and 1/4 inches long. He is doing great. The lady is happy that I am still breast feeding and there is no milk yet. She likes that I brush his teeth twice a day. And we even talked about car seats and she is happy he is staying rear facing until the seat limit of 30lbs. SO much safer.
She said I was doing a good job. Nothing like a compliment that makes you feel like you are doing something right!

Feeling a little low

to be honest....
I hate the way I look. I would NOT trade Cooper for the world. So don't get me wrong. I have so many cute clothes that are prepregnancy. I will never fit them again.
I hate what I weigh. Just can't seem to find the motivation to loose it.
Went for a rollerblade yesterday with Cooper in the stroller and that felt good. So I am gonna try to do that every day.
Cooper was up at 2 last night to feed but ended up playing while I was trying to nurse. Then he was up for the day at 5:45. Boo.
He really is not acting himself. He is super cuddly. And if you know Cooper you know that he only stops to cuddle if A)he is tired or B)not feeling well.
I am going with the not feeling well. Tugging at his ears. But it is hard cause he does that when he is tired too. Not sure if I *want* to take him to the doctors. He has a phlemy cough. It doesn't sound very good. Hope it isn't gonna be broncitis or anything. I will watch him today.
Anyway........just venting.
Thanks if anyone actually read this.

Cooper and his birthday party....

The cake I made. Very time consuming. You can see on the front where Cooper was able to grab it with his fingers.


Dressed for his birthday party.


Enjoying bubbles


his new wagon



THIS is what older cousins are for!!


His new bike


enjoying his bike


DON'T STOP MOM!!!


ok that is enough for now. I will do a slide show. Thank you to everyone for all their gifts, their time, their company and the fun! Especially to you Auntie Sue for opening up your home to us! It was fun! Thank you!

Happy First Birthday Cooper!!

Today our special gift from Heaven turns one. Actually according to the computer it was exactly this time that I pushed him into the world. And he lay there while the sun flooded the room. And the nurse scrambled to get her other glove on cause he came SO FAST!!
The party was yesterday and it turned out GREAT! He was so spoiled!!

Thank you Lord for such a special & wonderful gift. I really couldn't have asked for more!!
I will post pictures later.

Cooper you make me LAUGH!!!

Ahhh.....the innocence
We have this old table we are taking to donate so it is out in the living room today cause we are taking it tonight. There is no glass in it but I turned around and this is what I saw............
(You thought it was great fun!)

PRAISE GOD

So as you know this month was my last maternity cheque. Scarey as all heck.
Phil just got paid and it is now all gone to bills. WE had less then $10 when it was all said and done. Then God moments SO OBVIOUS occured yesterday.
I called my work to see how much I owed them in my medical payments. I figured 1.5-2 months tops. So what does she tell me? "You don't owe anything"
I was like "are you sure?"
and she told me yep. That my holiday pay has covered it. HOLIDAY PAY!!!???? I didn't know I got that. Then she said "there will be some left over coming to you."
NO FRIGGEN WAY!!! Grocery money! Wahooooooo!
THEN......Phil had a dentist appointment in May. Along with quiting my job I loose the only medical that we had. So later yesterday the DENTIST calls me. They have a spot available for the 14th! My LAST full day of medical. AND IT IS COVERED! We won't have to pay ANYTHING!! Phil has to get off a few hours early but he is going to go in early and his boss is fine with him having to leave early. He talked to him yesterday. I think his boss really likes him anyway. Phil can do so much around that shop it amazes people. Not me too much. Cause I know how dedicated and driven he is.
SO in one day TWO MIRACLES! Well, I call them miracles. Or blessings whatever you want to call it.
Sorry for all the "yelling" I just had to share it.
PRAISE BE TO OUR GLORIOUS GOD!!!!!!! AMEN!!!

what a wonderful weekend

so needed. Sue, Dennis, Phil, Cooper and I all went to Birch Bay for the weekend.
Cooper had his first hamburger experience. Dry of course. Had a couple lovely days. Woke to rain this morning only to have it clear up some before we left.
Cooper LOVED the pool.
It was great to get away but it is great to be home too.
Here are a couple pictures. Check out more on my fotopages.

Sunrise on Saturday morning


In his robe and cloth swim diaper on the way to the pool


In the pool with Daddy


like I said...more on my fotopages.
Cooper did something new this weekend. He can go from sitting to standing now. It is so cute!

Look what I got this morning in my email.....

hint, hint anyone???

SIGH..............

“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (James 1:2-4 NIV)

oh boy.....

I knew it was coming.
I knew it was bound to happen.
Yet when it happened I had a panic attack.

I am talking about my last pay cheque. I thought it was going to be the normal amount. But it wasn't. It was HALF!! Alright breathe........
That's it for me..... no more maternity. Now we are a one income family. I have no idea how the hell we are going to get through this! Wait a minute. Yes I do.
GOD.
A dear friend pointed out that yes the money has stopped coming in and this is now where the faith takes over. Yet I am scared. I want to believe. I want to not worry. I really do.

I was reading a special friends blog. Mandy had a post that really struck me today.
Give all your worries to God. Cause He loves me. No other strings attached. Give them to Him because He loves me. I am His child.

Oh Lord! If only you know the worries I have right now!

"I DO"

and you care? My petty worries that drag me down. You care? You want them? You want me to hand this over to You?

"my load is light Child. Cast your burdens upon me."

But what if they knock you down.

"I was brought to Earth as one of you. I know the struggle. I felt the pain. Lay it at the foot of the cross Child. That is where it belongs. Not on your shoulders. I am so much bigger and can handle it so much better for you. Trust me."

Alright......I am going to try my hardest. Convict me when I start to worry Lord. Stop me in my tracks. Help me to feel ease and trust. You have done it before for us. I know you will do it again. You do good for all those that love You. I love You. SO MUCH. It's in Your hands because I really can't do this on my own....

"thank you Child. I love you. You are special. I care for you. It will be ok. Trust me"

I will......


God ...... it is all yours. I can't do anything. I have heard it said that who by worrying has added a single day to their life (or something like that). I don't know where it is in the bible or if it is but it just came to my head. No point worrying about tomorrow or where food will come from. Where rent will come from. You already know that. Help me to take it day by day and enjoy this WONDERFUL life You have blessed me with. I am all Yours. All Yours.
This next chapter is scaring the crap out of me. However, there is a certain amount of peace just knowing that You already know what will happen next. That it will be better then before. That You will take this into Your hands. That YOU are big enough to carry it for I am weak but in You I am strong. I can't carry it. You can. Thank you almighty, wonderful Father.
wow....I feel better....

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