I AM loved

I've always been told "i love you" growing up but for some reason there is only so many times that it gets said without any heart when you finally start to disregard it.
I have struggled with wanting to be loved and needing to be loved. Then when I realize that I am, I question it. Why? How could God love me this much when I have done SOOOO many things wrong? Why do people love me? What if they found out about the real me and all the problems I have? What if they found out what I struggle through and decide that there is no hope.
I have discovered that I am loved and that I will not be thrown aside when I am lost and I feel so alone. I am not alone. I am not being given up on. God cares. There are people that care and are praying for me. As "weird" as it may feel, I let them pray. I really have no choice in the matter now do I?
The power of prayer is inmessureable and can't be beat. You feel your spirit start to mend and the burden slowly lift from your heart. Then it's too late. It's all out now, but you aren't judged. If anything you are told how much you are loved and supported.

A friend gave this to me:
"To be loved means to be chosen. The sense of being chosen is one of the very best gifts love bestows on the beloved. Someone has seen me as an unique person, and that someone desires to come closer to me, to be on the same side as I'm on. Someone believes that I have a significant contributaion to make.

Love confers a kind of chosenness on the one who is loved. Love wispers, I choose you. I want to be on your side. And for the ragged people, for people with misshappen spirits and crooked hearts and lopsided souls, this is life.

'to be loved uniquely-- for one's special self-- is to be loved as we need to be loved.'
This is what God does, He loves each of us uniquely.

Remember and feast on the words that give life: 'I am the beloved. I am loved by God'."

Someone sees me as unique. I am chosen. Someone believes that I have a significant contribution. Three things that I never truly believed until now. No matter who I am or what I do, I am loved. I am chosen.I am the beloved. I am loved by God. In my darkest moment I will never froget that I have friends surrounding me, supporting me no matter what. I AM LOVED!!! What a wonderful feeling..........