I wonder

I stand here feeling
the world pass
under my feet
and I wonder.
I feel detached from
who I am becoming
and who I used to be
and I wonder.
I try to reach for
God to understand
who He is and
what He is doing in my life
and I wonder.
I am reaching for
you God and I
want to understand.
I want to have the
undying faith and
I want to be
patient so that you
may reaveal yourself
to me.
Yet I wonder.
God I stand here
waiting, the world
moving and I
no longer want to
wonder.
I want to know
your love and
understand you but
still I wonder.