Future....

So I am the type of person that totally NEEDS to plan EVERYTHING. Just ask those closest to me. Ask the ones that I drive absolutely nuts. Everything needs to be planned right down to the exact time. It drives a few of my friends nuts, if not all of them. Must have the structure. Can't just "wing it".
Latley though I have been trying hard to do just that. Trying to wing it. Hard as it may be. I feel it eating at me that I am not setting a specific time. When I am told 9:30ish, I need to know if it is 9:30 or 9:45. Must choose an exact time. In fact the other day I just had to wing something and that was tough. If I don't have the exact time figured out then it just won't work, when in actuality that is a farce. Things will happen when they are meant to happen.
I went to my first Costa Rica meeting and was told to expect things to change from one moment to the next. I think God is trying to tell me something there. So I have been trying, reluctantly, to just wing things and see how they go. Take chances.
I feel that I must plan my future. If I should go to school. If and when we should buy a house, or have a family. Yet, I can just picture God shaking His head at me. Asking me when am I going to learn? It is not in my timing but in His. He knows my future. He knows what He has in store for me, for my family. Yet I have to be the one in control. I have to have the items on the list checked off by my own pen, my own timing. Not working yet....
When am I ever going to learn that my future is in Gods hands and that not everything can be planned right down to the second? That I need to learn how to "wing it". That is going to be a tough one....