Thursday, August 23, 2007

Getting a break

I am getting a break tomorrow. Tomorrow morning my little boy leaves for the day with his daddy. Daddy goes to work and Cooper goes to Grammy's.

I am seriously having mixed feelings. I am excited to go back to bed. To clean. To scrapbook. But I will be saying good bye to my son for the day. He will be out of my hands and will be in the capable hands of his daddy and his Grammy. I just am not sure. A day without him. I have never had that.

I know he will be fine. He will be leaving with a lunch and a list of the times he does stuff. This is just so odd and there is a huge part of me that feels guilty to need this break. To need to relax. I feel bad. I feel anxious. I feel excited. I feel selfish. I have mixed feelings about this.

Not that I don't love my son. I just want a few hours. No diapers. No crying. But then no hugs. No kisses. No loves. No reading to my boy.

Oh dear am I doing the right thing? Maybe I should just phone and cancel.

3 comments:

Christy Acorn said...

Misty,

Honestly you need to do this. You need one day to relax, to not hear crying and fits and biting. Just one day to feel completly relaxed. You can do this. I know how hard it is, I do the same thing with Joel. I want it but I don't want to leave him. He has proven to do great as will Cooper.

((((((((HUGS))))))))

wilsonian said...

Let him go. Really. It's good for you, it's a good bonding time for Grammy, and it's good socializing for Cooper. A win-win-win situation! Really!!

Michelle said...

I agree with wilsonian, it's a win-win-win situation. You need, and deserve a break, all mom's do! I really feel it makes us better moms if we have some down time. He is in capable hands!

I really hope you take some time to relax and enjoy this time!