Thursday, February 07, 2008

The Alpha Course

I am attending the Alpha course at a local church named Northview. It is Wednesday nights. Last night I only knew the people in my group, no one from my church was at the table and I felt rather alone. One of the hosts moved over though and sat beside me. She seems pretty nice.
One thing about me that most people will scoff and argue is that I am a shy person. Until you get to know me. I am especially shy when I am in groups where I really don't know anyone.
There is a weekend away retreat coming up. It is apparently the turning point in the course. I am still hesitant on going. For a few reasons.
1) money
2) leaving Cooper for the first time and it being ALL WEEKEND!
3) not knowing anyone
4) Phil works super late Friday night, so who will watch Cooper

now I have been talking to Phil and Sue. Plus the people at the course. I must admit they are ALL making it hard to say NO.
1) it can be paid for by Northview
2) Phil is a great father and I trust him. But can I handle it!
4) one of the ladies told me that she will go for walks with me and hang out with me. That the cabins are unisex. That all the ladies stay in a bunk of like 12 other ladies and the men stay in seperate rooms and bunks. Even if they are married. Plus I could go home if I needed to. But should I take the bus and try to have fun?
5) My mother in law will watch him I am sure of it.

I am just trying to come up with excuses not to go. It really doesn't seem to be working. The host from my group will get back to me to let me know what is going on. I have this week to decide. My gut is flip flopping. Another thing I think about is the opportunity to take some amazing pictures. I always seem to be able to find God in those moments. I don't know what to do. But then again. I seem to be the only one telling myself not to go.
just had to write it out..............


wilsonian said...


Michelle said...

I agree. Go!

Cooper will be fine, Phil will be fine. I think if it's paid for then it seems to me doors are being opened for you. I know it's scary to go somewhere for that long at not know anyone but think of all the adult time and friends just waiting to be met.


rodbot said...

remember if they start chanting "leader" to the batman song.


LauraB said...

GO GO and GO! I go to our Ladies Retreat almost every year. But having my due date so close to the time frame this year, I don't feel comfortable going. I'm really sad I don't get to go. Life can be so busy and crazy. Ours is held at this camp that's literally in the middle of no where. It's about 2 1/2 hours from home. I so look forward to that being a weekend where I can simply get away from the cares of my life (phone, cleaning, computer, cooking, hubby, kid, etc..) and FOCUS on God. I miss that I can't go this time. I think you would enjoy it!