Thursday, February 28, 2008

what is my problem!

I find myself getting envious over the littlest things lately.
Old pictures of myself. Not doing enough mom like stuff. Not sewing enough. Not doing this or doing that....
this is SO NOT what God would want. He would want me to be happy where I am and with who I am. I feel stressed over finances. I have been praying over and over to let that stress leave me but am now wondering if maybe I am praying for it but not actually letting it go. Know what I mean?
I had a tremendous weekend. I don't want this day to day life crap to get me down. We talked about this before the retreat ended. How it would be hard to get back to our day to day life full of stresses. The retreat was nice cause you were surrounded with Christians. My life consists of mostly Christian friends and those that are not, does not mean I love them any less.
So now to turn on a dime.....
let's be thankful for what I have. I may miss stuff here but it is worth a shot...

An awesome God that gave His only son for ME. although I am not worthy.
A wonderful husband who provides for us.
A beautiful and healthy smart son.
A roof over my head
A mother in law who is baking me cookies cause I need to take something to moms group
Food in my belly
Sunny day
A car that runs
Friends that love me
Warm shower
A working washer and dryer
Inlaws that come over during my stressful time and fix said washer
Cooper having people in his life that love him.
A God that loves my son MORE then I do. (hard to imagine)
Being alive.
Having the Holy Spirit

there. That is good for now. Stop dwelling on the things that are bugging me and focus and pray about the stuff that I am thankful to have. My problem? I am human. My solution? I am God's child and I can lean on Him. Thank you God!!


Nicole said...

Its good to see you trying to focus on the positive. It is a hard thing to do. I'm trying to work on it myself (often failing). One thing that is good to do is to find daily affirmations and write them out. Place them in the shower, in the cupboard you open each morning, all over your daily routine.

A few that I liked are:
"I learn from every situation, good or bad"
"I welcome opportunities to serve others"
"My enthusiasm adds zest and pleasure to my life"
"If I act enthusiastic then I'll be enthusiastic"
and if you need any more, I have 365 in my winners journal! :)

Michelle said...

Your not alone in this, it is so easy to get wrapped up in all the negative, feel all the stress. It's so good to remind yourself of all the good stuff you have going on. Try to keep up the positive!