I don't think he likes avacado (LOL).....

what do you think??

Anyone want to see MORE pictures??

Just went outside with Cooper. The snow was perfect!! Not too soft or too hard!! Although he could barely move in the snowsuit cause it is too small!! LOL

http://miss-buggy.fotopages.com/?entry=1001290&back=http://miss-buggy.fotopages.com/

What is your elf name?

Mine is:

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Cooper's is:

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Phil's is:

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LOL!! Got a lot of funny names in this house!

Crazy, crazy.....

going crazy.....
Stuck inside with a teething baby! The only reason why I say going is cause I got out yesterday, mind you it was to the dentist but I still got out while Grammy and Grandpa watched Cooper.
I am just thankful that he doesn't take the teething as bad as some other kids do.
sigh..........

Check out the funny hair do!!

and it did it on it's own....LOL
(not to mention, how I love his blue eyes!!)

Done Christmas decorating

The lights are white. The tree.










This little tree has colored lights.

I love my computer BUT.....

it is driving me CRAZY!!! It shuts down on it's own and restarts. My computer guy [:)] says that I don't have enough ram. So here I am ready to throw the darn thing out the window but I know I would go crazy without it so I am grateful for it.
Putting up Christmas decorations right now and I can't have any Christmas music playing cause it takes up too much room and shuts down. Just doesn't feel the same without the music. :(

Just came out from the warm building




Too cold mommy! Let's go in. (the wind chill was even cold for mommy)




note from my mommy: awwwww....I feel horrible! He looks so sad. We were outside for a total of like 5 minutes. He was smiling I swear he was!! I didn't even know it was windy. couldn't hear it from here!

SNOW, SNOW, I LOVE SNOW!!

It snowed last night! I am UNBELIEVABLY excited!! Just like a little kid!

It's SNOWING!!

and I love it!!
I will take pics tomorrow. Should be an interesting drive to church. I heard that it is supposed to snow all week, except Wednesday.
I need some snow pants for my little boy and boots. Hehe....because I can. Want to keep him warm. He took the snow out of my hand today and squished it in his own then threw it. Hehehe...knows how to do snowballs already :D

7 months old

My little angel turned 7 months on the 16th! How time flies!


(sorry it's blurry, I blame the camera!!)

My standing boy

I know it is grainy and I did try to fix it but :P I got to make dinner. But I thought I would share the pic. I love how he is biting his lower lip. He has been doing that lately. Cute.

Reaching out

You know, I was going back over some things lately. Reading some of my old poems and stuff. I am not in a black hole. I have been reaching for some help but while reading one of my poems it occured to me that I am not reaching for the right kind of help. That I need to be reaching to God and for God rather then people. God will not let me down and he will lead the way. Just some of the verses of this poem struck me. He is warmth, love, patience and kindness. Why haven't I been reaching for Him.
I have been chosing not to be personal with my blogs. Just never found the point of it anymore. Then a friend pointed out that I am not doing it for others, I am doing it for myself. Why didn't I see that?
I have chosen to busy myself with things that don't relate to God or, in actuality, things that don't make me think. Things that make me have to examine myself cause I don't have the time. Sure I have the time or else I wouldn't be blogging. I need to get back. I realize that. I have tried before but in my mind failed. Then I wonder why I even bother cause I am getting distracted too easily.
I know that God is faithful. I know that He provides. I personally believe my life right now is a walking example of that. I am so thankful too. I think maybe going back and reading some of my old poetry has reminded me who I really need to reach for. I need to reach for Him. His warmth, His love, His strength, His faith, His never tiring or faultering arms. Thank you Lord that You are so faithful and that You are holding Your hands to me. Here I am reaching back to You.
There is no title to this poem. And like I said, I am not down or out. I am not in a dark hole. I just loved remembering the love. I am reaching for help and now I think I have realized where it is I need to extend that hand to.


You are thrown to the
ground and engulfed by
the black hole abyss,
There seems to be
no feasable way around it.
You lay there wondering
what to do next?
All around you is nothing
but black empty space
the takes the breath and
life right out of you.
You reach as high as you
can muster with all
your strength.
You feel the warmth on
your cold, clammy fingers.
You feel the warmth and
the touch of love
Love is reaching back to
you while you lie in
wait wondering.
Love will no let go of
you and let you
disappear into the great
unknown,
Love holds you so faithfully
and strong, never tiring
or giving up even when
you get weak.
Love will help pull you
out of this dark hole
slowly, step by step, and
will never turn it's
back on you.
Love is patient, kind and
ever so understanding.
You are loved. You do matter
Slowly you start to feel
yourself coming away from
the black hole abyss.

Feb. 16, 2005

Tired of it all

This is a vent. If any cares ;)

I am tired of it all. Tired of feeling alone when I am in a crowded room. Tired of wondering if I wasn't blogging would anyone care? Tired of feeling like I am just a boring person.
Just over all tired of everything.
People who I thought were friends seem to be non existent. Don't seem to want to be near me or around me anymore. Why? What did I do?
I started blogging a long time ago and didn't really get the point to it. Then I began to love doing it but am now at the point of wondering why I even bother. I am having a conversation with myself. Does anyone care? It is like if I don't bear a part of myself I don't matter. I have to dish the crap out first. Have been feeling this way for a while. Hence the reason why there are no insightful posts. Lost touch with that part of me.
My son is my life. I write about him a lot and it just seems like no one really cares about it and that is fine cause I am not doing it for you.
I always thought, if you don't like it don't read it. I guess that is where it is now. No one likes it so no one reads it so why do I bother anymore?
The people that I thought were friends just seem to want nothing to do with me. No matter how many times I reach out. I have been wanting to reach out to people but am tired of feeling like a burden and tired of feeling shuned. If you think this blog is about you you are probably wrong. You can send me an email and ask but you are probably wrong.
I understand how hectic life is, heck my kid is screaming to get up and I am not wanting to get him up cause these 6am wake up times are rediculous.
Why do I bother reaching out? Cause that is what God needs us to do. But I am tired of reaching out and feeling nothing but space. Do you care? Does it matter? I don't care anymore. I am done with it. I am just tired of it all. Want to find rest but that is just impossible. I don't want sympathy I don't want pity. Want to know how I am feeling? Here it is. Will probably end up being deleted like so many times before but this is where I am at and I hate it. I hate feeling like "another brick in the wall". I wish I didn't feel this way. I wish that when I reached out to some people I felt something back. I wish that when I reached for God too I felt His hand take mine. I can't feel it. What is wrong with me?
Just tired of it all.

What a wonderful way to wake up!

Seriously.
The alarm went off. There was a song just starting Phil rolled over and cuddled. It was "our" song. Our wedding song.
Sammy Kershaw's "Love of My Life."
Of course in my half asleep stupor I said that would make a beautiful wedding song. Once it was over. My husband says, that was our wedding song. I don't know you anymore. (totally joking of course. At least I think ;) ) I said, DUH!! That is why I loved it and totally reconized it.
Perfect way to say good morning.

LOVE OF MY LIFE
Sammy Kershaw

You are the love of my life
And you are the reason I'm alive
And baby, baby, baby
When I think of how you saved me
I go crazy.

I've never known love like this
And it fills me with a new tenderness
And I know, I know, I know
You're in my heart, you're in my soul
You're all I can't resist.

And I need to tell you
The first time I held you I knew
You are the love of my life

I spent a lifetime waiting
always hesitating until you
I was lost so deep inside my shell
'Til you came and saved me from myself
Now all I really know is I need you.

And you are the love of my life
All the joy and tears that I cry
And baby, baby, baby
You don't have to say a word
I see it in your eyes.

As we stand together
I promise forever 'til the day that I die
You are the love of my life.

--- Instrumental ---

I spent a lifetime waiting
Always hesitating until you
I was lost so deep inside my shell
'Til you came and saved me from myself
Now all I really know is I need you.

You are the love of my life
And you are the reason I'm alive...

Cooper is staying rear facing as long as possible

no matter how crazy I may look or sound. Now it makes me wish we researched the carseats a little better. Rather then getting one that was a little less expensive and seemed the same as the more expensive one. Why do I do this to myself? I hope my kid is safe. I believe he is.

This is a video showing why rear-facing is so much safer than forward-facing. It shows crash tests of both and you can see the enormous difference it makes on a child...please check it out!!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=kRP7ynNI8mI

HA!!!!

funny phone call this morning!!! (My words are in blue)

riiiiiinnnnngggggggggg.........
Hello?

Hi. Is your mom or dad there?

Pardon me?

Is your mom or dad there?

ummmmmmm.........I am the woman of the house hold.

(she laughs a giddy, nervous laugh)You sound so young. Sorry. This is...............

and the conversation continues. Looking back I should have said, sorry they aren't in right now can I take a message? LOL! Geesh!! I don't sound that young do I? I do sound like a frog cause of my cold but COME ON!! That is definately a new one.

Calling on the body of Christ

I attend a moms group on Friday mornings. I love the ladies there and it is a great start to the day.
This is why I am calling on all of you to pray.
One of the moms has a 1 and a half year old and was expecting twins. She was 25 weeks along and went into labour. She had two very beautiful girls named Faith and Makaila. So that is 15 weeks early if my math is right.
Apparently the girls aren't doing too well. Karyn, the mom, was saying that Faith has a blood infection and Makaila has a lung infection. This family really needs all of our prayers.
Please help me in lifting them up in prayer today. Any moment of the day if we can just stop and send up a prayer. I am going to say one here but as usual feel free to say what ever moves you to do so.
You can follow their journey here.
Thank you

Heavenly Father.
I come before you today with a lot on my heart and Karyn and her family is one of them. I just pray for them to be lifted into Your loving arms and feel Your presence. I pray for a miracle in these two precious little baby girls. Your gift from above. I pray for things to just start miraculously getting better for these little angels. That Your touch is ever so evident to all of us and that it just amazes the doctors. I pray for Your blessing on this wonderful family. Lord, thank you for their gift. Precious twin girls. Amazing in itself. I just hold them to you today and everyday.
In Your precious name we pray.
AMEN

new teeth

see the dates? yeah it has been a fun few days round here!!

ok. I thought this was funny

we are in trouble. Someone was motoring around this morning and found daddy's shoes. I didn't realize until I saw his face. Can you see it??