Monday, December 27, 2004

FEAR

Fear
Your eyes grow
wide.
Your stomach
turns.
Your tears
start to
FALL.
Your heart
tells you to
"RUN!"
But you stand
there,
waiting,
waiting for
fear to strike.
You look into
fears eyes
and realize
that you've
seen them
before.

Did I get anyones attention out there?
I have let fear rule a certain part of my life and I am not proud of it. I know that if the worst were to happen I would have many regrets but yet I can't bring myself to do the right thing.
Why is it that we let fear control us? I know mine is because I am too scared and I don't want to go through the same thing I went through before. I know I am being pretty vauge (sp?) here but that is what the fear does to me. I don't want to write out exactly what I am affraid of. I don't want to show my vulnerability and I don't want to be pittied, I just need to hear myself say this all. The whole fact that I am reconizing this fear scares the living crap out of me. I don't want to see this particular fear again. It is something I think no one should go through and I am trying to stand back so that I don't go though it again. But will I regret it? Probably. I just don't know what to do.
So here I am, actually wondering if I should post this or not. If I should let the fear win. I know that if I don't post something I will kick myself and if I do post it I may regret it. A loose, loose situation. Oh well, here goes.......

3 comments:

rose said...

been there, doing that. and it's tough.

i thought i was going to have to face it Jan. 15 (speaking it aloud to others), but it has been put off because of a previous commitment. don't know if i'm happy about it or not. it's not something i'll ever post about, way too personal. but even facing these fears yourself is tough. God will give you strength.

kaybrayshay said...

I confronted a fear..confronting my mother..now that I have done it once.. i will do it again!~!!!!

Miss-buggy said...

Unfourtunately it is not that easy for me. I can't do it, or I just won't do it. I want to but like I said I am not going through what I went through again.