Wednesday, March 30, 2005

It Breaks My Heart

I have only been doing the sandwich giveaway for a little while now. It has become such a major part of my life. That and street church.
I got a new job, which is great but...
I will have to work Sundays. That means I might miss church, miss the giveaway or even street church. It truly breaks my heart. It actually makes me want to cry. The joy that I feel helping others is indescribable. The smiles on the peoples faces. Out there we have one major thing in common - Christ. It hurts that I will miss the most important part of me that has become my life lately.
If God didn't want me at this job, I wouldn't be there right? Maybe they won't schedule me for Sundays. I can pray about it, but I just pray thanks that I got the job.
Right now something is going on with my head and stomach still. I have been praying that it will be better by tomorrow. I won't give up on that but at the same time I am scared.
As you can see there are a few things going on right now. The ones that hurt the most I have listed. It truly breaks my heart that I won't be there every Sunday and makes me cry.

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